What's Next? 
© Amanda 
 
Published: July 2015 
 
I lie awake tonight, 
Wishing of things I can change. 
I try to convince myself, 
But it's all so strange. 
 
Is it me, 
Or is it you? 
Do I try, 
Or are we through? 
 
So long we've shared 
Just to walk away. 
But so much hurt 
To want to stay. 
 
Why do we do this, 
Try to hurt the other more, 
Only to watch one 
Walk right out the door? 
 
I love you so much, 
Yet I push you to the point of breaking, 
But why do you play with my heart 
And never stop taking? 
 
Is this the end 
Or a new beginning? 
Only one can guide me 
When my head is spinning. 
 
Don't push, 
Don't try, 
Don't stress, 
Don't cry. 
 
That is what plays 
Over in my head 
As I try to close my eyes 
And just go